Last night I *finally* slept a full night! I'm starting to feel like myself again, although I was still dragging today. Work helped though, I had a lot to do and it was good to keep my mind occupied. I have a project to complete tomorrow morning so I know that will also help. I'm not so concerned anymore, but I'm still holding on to what I think is reason to keep me from being too let down if something bad does happen. When is it ok to just be optimistic and have faith? My survival mode kicks in and I want to be prepared for anything. But the preparation is too similar to fear so what good does that do?
I'm planning on sleeping and resting tonight. It's 8:30 and I'm off to sleep now. Hopefully we'll get to hear a heartbeat tomorrow and maybe even see an ultrasound if we're lucky.
